4 years without you...

I miss you Corkey.

I thank you for the many lessons you taught me and brought into my life.

You even taught me about the pain of loosing some one that you love and adore.

The empty space in my heart for you will always be there, especially on days like today, when I reflect back to 4 years ago.

I never thought the night would end like it did, I never thought your night would end like it did. I'm sorry I was not there with you. I'm sorry I did not know you were so bad off. I'm sorry I could not hold you and make all the pain, fear and death leave you.

I love you my little sunshine birdie.

Pepper left us this year. He became bad off and I had to help end his suffering and say "night night" to him one last time.It was sad, ot hurt and I cried. Yet the pain I felt in loosing little Pepper corn was so different than the pain I felt and still feel about you leaving me.

I will always love you.

I miss you.

Loki is here and learning so much although he doesn't sing as much as you and some of our special songs, well, I never taught Loki to sing.

Thinking of you tonight and how much you mean to me and how very special you were in my life.

I tend to the white circle of stones in the back yard with love. Some of the pieces of wood that helped turn you to ashes are still there. I have a special box, with some of your bones that didn't turn to ash...all I have left of you. Feathers, bones and beautiful memories. Bitter sweet. Love and Lessons of Life.

Rest in peace my love and I know your spirit is flying free.

1/30/13